I hate how people act like because they have 3 job interviews in one day (which I think is a lie because she only mentioned two places) it makes them a god suddenly.  It peeves me how they start to act like oh I’m more motivated, less lazy, and have more energy than everyone else.  The particular person I’m talking about refers to me when saying this.  No paranoia, truth.  Like, hoe, please, I had three interviews at varying times all before you even started going and applying places.  So like really, that makes me so aggravated.  The reason you have job interviews is because you’re older and have much more work experience. So, get over it!!

I finally dyed my hair.  I’d always wanted to but never did it because I was scared.  My life an the world were changing steadily at a somewhat fast pace around me and it was time for a change for me instead of being miserable about my hair, I got it cut the same way, but shorter and more grown up looking.  I dyed it this darker almost black color that is mostly purple hues to it.  Not bright purple, more like a dark plum color.  It looks wonderful.  Like I said, it everything in my life was changing at a fastly steady pace and I decided it was time to take control and change the things I didn’t like instead of being grumpy and complaining all the time. I feel 100x better and it’s only the first change. :)

very super boring here, and everywhere else.  I have a blog on wordpress too. But that doesn’t get much traffic either.

I’ve been very lost and trying to find myself.  At school, in life, in my relationship.

I found myself trying to do to much during the actual semester plus I’ve been on new medicine.  So kicking my butt. haha.

I’ve just been.. blah recently.  Working on it though. 

I’m so so so so super excited about Christmas time!!!

It didn’t turn out as well as I planned but I guess it’s ok.  It would have turned out better if I hadn’t had to sew it together by hand.  But oh well I guess it’s usable.  Lol.  I do not want to go to class today at all.

The class I have today was given a group lab project that’s due in a couple to a few weeks and we have lab once a week, that should be super fun.  My group got global warming.

I feel like there are million things going on while everything else is falling apart.  I feel like I have a million things to do that I just can’t ever get done.  I hate it and it’s ridiculous. haha.

I really need to get my life organized.

I’ve been sick since Monday morning.  I feel horrendous and I have to drop a class after I talk to an adviser.  While I know my life could be so much worse I’d like to get away from my atrocious family asap.  I’d like to start a life with Chris if he’ll have it and I’d like to move on and stop being depressed about my shitty family situations.  My to do list feels never ending and I feel like everything is a constant struggle.  The happiness I feel from being around Chris is enough to keep me going.  It makes me feel like there is hope.  Not that if he left I couldn’t make it, but it would be miserable.  Now, I sound like a stupid little girl. haha. 

Anyway, the end.

it’s job application time. :/ applying for jobs sucks. Why?  I have no experience and no degree yet.  Boooo!!

The end.

and I had an awesome night last night.  We made dinner together.. breakfast food to be exact.  Today though, was pretty awnry.  It’s soooo hot out.  But still had a good day/  I’ve been trying to figure school stuff out so that hasn’t been fun. But.. oh well.  Still wanting to get a job and move out.  But, after this semester, I’ll only have an aas in psychology.  Fml.

The end.

for school have completely fallen apart.  I have financial aid but that doesn’t help if I don’t know what I want to do.  So now,  I have no plan for my life and no way out of my house.  I want out so incredibly badly.  The only thing I am sure about, is Chris.

I want so badly to be on my own with a job and doing my own thing and have my life started.  But, of course.. I need a job which means finishing school.. booo!! :/